And the world keeps turning...

So I go into work today with every intention of turning in my two weeks notice, but discover that it is unneccesary because my boss had decided to lay off all of the night-shift operators. Of course it would be crying over spilt milk to mourn the loss of that particular job since I was leaving anyway and could not have reasonably expected to stay there for any long term anyhow given the many hazards of the environment. I'm still a little annoyed that I was working day in and day out with nickel, and nickel dust and was never informed that it was a carcinogen known to cause lung cancer if inhaled. I discovered this only about a month ago after working with the stuff for two months and happening across a package that contained a carcinogen warning.

To get to the point though, I still feel strangely as if I had "lost" my job. Mainly its because I was counting on the additional funds that would come from 3 weeks of working two jobs. It would have been an additional 5-6 hundred dollars which would have been nice after they had given me so few hours over the past month. So instead of moving into my new job and getting ready for school in a month with an at least comfortable financial position (if not rock solid) I'm starting my part time job and wondering how long I'm going to be able to afford to work there. I'm also wondering if I'll be able to afford massage school. Its a wonder how much of a difference $500 dollars can make for someone with as limited funds as myself.

So I spent most of my last shift contemplating whether or not I would have to give up my cats, put off going to school, getting an apartment, forget about getting a car anytime soon, and cut back the time and money spent at my church. It was all rather depressing.

Oh yeah and my wedding is likely going to have to wait for another year, and having kids will have to wait even longer. I guess there's no rush, but it was nice to be really planning those things.